独一无二, 无尽的爱

I have been hesitating during the last week whether to make that post public or keep it private. It seems like one of those posts that would come and bite me back later. I guess I could move it back to private category or password protect it.

Broken Heart - Picture taken at random from blgospot

After almost one year, I suddenly find myself back to being a single guy. WTF? How can one be ‘not compatible’ when last time you were kissing me, holding hands and making jokes and saying you had a good time? I’m completely baffled. I know what did push you to finally say out these dreadful words, but that in itself is not sufficient for this bombshell. It can but only be one part of the decision making. I can guess some of the things, but some of them would remain a mystery.

Tired of this. I was the driving force behind the relationship, keeping it afloat when doubts would creep on us, but I am spent now. A Chinese friend told me that the girls here like to do the breaking up act so that the guy would rush to try and hang on to the girl (seems like in the Indian movies, just need some singing and dancing, haha). I don’t think she’s that kind of girl. I could be wrong, but after a year I think I would have sensed it.

Anyway, this breakup/makeup act doesn’t work with me. You’ve said ‘break up’, then break up it is. I know you will never see this post, nor would you know how painful it was to hear you say those words. I cried that night. Yes, me, a man, who usually spend his time comforting others. I cried my heart out, I drank myself to sleep, and even went to buy a packet of cigarettes, when I had given up on social smoking last year.

I sincerely wish you all the best. I am deleting all your correspondence, contact details, etc. At the moment that’s the only way for me to move forward.

祝你好运。

Random picture taken from loselove.cn, meaning approx 'The distance between being in love and being out of love is simply the process from feeling the pain of being hurt to feeling nothing from the hurt'